| Its been awhile, But is it weird..that my boyfriend has a "type" and I fall nowhere near it? And how he seems to be attracted to the same thing...that reminds of her...everyperson that kinda looks like her he begins talking to or finds cute..or is this me just being insecure??...Fuck him. |
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| Dear Xanga, I know its been awhile since I've written on your big white page, but life has been busy and trying to blog on my daily woes has become a bit tiresome. But I'll give you my update. I am living with my boyfriend now, and it's been different. I see him everyday and oddly we don't argue at all anymore. Sometimes we have disagreements but none of the wars we used to have. It's nice, but trying to tell my parents of this decesion has been a bit difficult. It's not really approved of, but its my life..im practically 21 and I guess I have to learn to make mistakes and decisions on my own. And learn to pick myself up when I fall. Summer school has been a piece of cake so far. The only thing keeping me on my toes, is doing a semesters worth of math in six weeks. It's been a bit crazy, but I'm pulling through. Sometimes, I wish I'd find the right one, cause on somedays he feels like the right one and on others he doesn't. I guess it depends on my mood. The other thing that scares me, is Im afraid he'll never marry me, I know 21 is a young age to get married, but it'd be nice to have a solid future planned. I do not like the unknown. Anyway, 4th of July will be spent with the family, I'll prolly gain X amount of lbs this weekend considering I never eat anymore..no time... Ugh..fml |
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| Should it bother me that Im sitting next to my boyfriend, and that his friend Amanda, whom he has shared feelings for and finds no reason of me meeting, is texting him...I understand they are friends...but honestly..why temp yourself with that tranny anyway?? Eww Like every half second I hear the buzz from his phone. Ahh now he thinks Im writing about him..haha I am! Well how else can I get my fustration out, without starting an argument?? |
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| I dont know what to say her...but I miss my mother dearly since moving in with my boyfriend...I cry after everytime I see her...Im welling up as I jot this down... I also feel like an idiot for thinking I could believe some people will change... |
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